Saturday was spent emptying my insides of all foreign things. Food was no longer recognizable and rejcted in a painful way while shaking on the floor. My body was so sick of me abusing it that it just went comatose. I slept over 12 hours. And now, I can feel a cold coming on. I havn't been sick in almost a year and now for the first time in god knows when I let myself get worn down to the point where my body can't defend itself as usual.
But it's business as usual. School today, work tonight, assignements due tomorrow. Assignments that my computer destroyed and that I have to completely re-do. I should be freaking out but this is just the way it goes. That's life.
I came to the realization that I'm working my ass off to pay to do a mediocre job in school right now. That's a bullshit cycle that can't be helped. I will be so happy when this bullshit is over and I can go anywhere else and worry about new things. There I will worry about new things, while seeing new things and hopefully find a better balance.
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Sweetheart, I wish you all the best. Please eat as many oranges as possible and drink lots of green tea. And when you're feeling better fly a kite!
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