Random Weekend

I won 200 dollars last night at the casino. I understand why people develop gambling addictions. You just keep thinking that one more bet will do it, the machine is ready to pay if you're patient enough. I like setting limits, breaking even, knowing ahead of time how much money I am willing to loose. And importantly, remembering where my money is going. It would be different if the money was going towards a good cause. I can't justify throwing away hundreds of dollars to a casino to make the rich richer. That's disgusting. Which makes me think that I need to re-evaluate where the majority of my money goes.

Abbee just ran through the kitchen. Probably drunk? Crying? We'll see. Ohhhhh, maybe a late night older sibling lecture is in order. Lucky thing doesn't know the parentals are in bed.....

(5 minutes later)
Not drunk, possibly and probably slightly buzzed, and wearing a boy's sweater. Oh well, no bad cop Frankee tonight. There's always the pre prom lecture to look forward to.

I went out last night to usual Friday night haunt. I brought my sister for her first pub experience and I think she liked it. My friend berated the guitar player until he played "Piano Man," which he didn't know very well, it was a short version of three verses and probably not in the right order whatsoever. But we sang at the top of our lungs anyways and the whole thing is on tape, soon to be posted for the pleasure of the entire internet community. Many sweet potato fries were eaten, and lots of beer was enjoyed. Overall, it was a great time. Something was bugging me for about a minute but beer and singing can always clear up any worries.

Biggest news of the week: I recieved a really unexpected surprise at work when I found out that I will be the new coordinator of camp. People ask if I'm excited. Scared shitless is more like it. I didn't realize I wanted the job. I hadn't considered getting it because I thought for sure someone else would. I was even told last year that I wasn't coordinator, "material," by a friend. Now that I think about it, I could do it, I still have some things to learn but I havn't been working for two years in the winter season for nothing. I've been working towards something bigger and I didn't realize it was time to move up. It's a huge step as far as my responsibilities go and a lot of extra work. I havn't been in a large leadership position since high school. I've kind of missed being in a in a position that allows me to create something more or less in my own image. I guess it's a fancy way of saying I miss being the boss. I'm so glad I decided not to do intersession so that I can put virtually all my energy into this. I've been so bored lately and planning for camp is something I would be happy to do in any spare time. I have great help too, and a lot of support. I'm just so excited to organize and plan and make changes and I'm being a complete nerd and I don't care! All I really know is that I love camp and now I have the ability to do almost anything I want.

Sidenote:
There's this part in the movie Juno where she has just told her dad she's pregnant and he says, "I thought you were the kind of girl who knew when to say when." And she says, "I don't really know what kind of girl I am." THAT'S my favourite part.
I'm all kinds of messed up girl and I kinda like it.



Have a good long weekend, wherever you are.

Much love