I hate my birthday. Not because I get older. I could care less about age. That's a semi lie. Turning 20 was a near tragedy at first but 21 is no sweat. I hate it when people call and make a big deal, like I did something really important. I'd rather celebrate good grades or gettting a promotion at work. And I guess birthdays can be for celebrating a years accomplishments but its not like we actually think about that come a friend's birthday. And besides, I'm not going to list them for you. A relelvant accomplishment should be celebrated in THAT moment anyways. But it seems birthdays are a bigger deal and yet, I have done nothing but stayed alive for another 365 days. I don't even like cake. Sure, I like celebrating an overall year of success but I always thought thats what the holidays were for. On New Years we all celebrate together and no one is singled out. Not that singling out accomplishments is bad. I just prefer the celebrating everyone at the same time. "I love you, I love that you're here, thanks for being in my life, let's all be in love with each other and hope that we get another year of this together." That's more fun than my birthday. "Cheers to me, I squeezed my way out of a uterus, let's drink." I don't think so. And so in a week from today I will be 21. I took my birthday off facebook. Those who genuinely wish me a happy birthday are welcome to do so. Those who feel obligated because the feed told you so will not have to worry about keeping up with the Jones'. lol You're off the hook. I don't need my inbox flooded anyways. I love that people want to take me out and celebrate with me, I can't wait to see those I love. I guess I should add that I have nothing against celebrating birthdays in general, if you love your birthday more power to you, I envy it.
I already know I'm getting a camera. What I really want is a twenty dollar band shirt I should have bought months ago. Tragic. If only they'd ask. lol. I could save them money.
Much love
About Me
- Frankee
- My name is Francesca and Frankee. If I am going to be completely honest I have to say that I can tell you very little about myself. I am never the same person from one day to the next. I love causing a scene and confusing people, shaking up their expectations and making their moments into memories. I'm full of contradictions, someone who loves being completely isolated and still tends to crave living in the middle of an eclectic downtown anywhere. Life is too short not to feel and in the past I've tried too hard to be resilient. Good and bad, I'll take it over nothing. Today I know my hands are full, I have so much and life is worth the things you cannot touch. I believe in passion and love and only hate time. Time is my enemy and I will stay as young as I feel to spite him. It isn't really these memories I'll keep forever but the way in which they made me feel. It's not hard to make me happy. Stars, music, children, fireflies, tea and art keep me sane. I like me, I hope you like you.
1 comment:
I turned 21 this year too and I feel like there was a lot of pressure to have a big drink-a-thon party, which really isn't my scene. So I did end up having a party but more of a quiet affair. Sometimes it all just seems like a lot of fuss...Having said that, I did have a good time with close family and friends. I hope you had a nice day too!
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